... Two Years ...

Today marks the second anniversary of my brother’s death. I can not believe it has been two years since his passing. Some day’s it feels like the accident happen just yesterday while other day’s it feels like it happen a lifetime ago. So much has changed over these last two years in my life. I have gotten married to the man of my dreams, have a wonderful job and we are now expecting a sweet baby girl. I hope Dylan is smiling down on me from Heaven proud of the life I have been living. I can’t wait to hold my baby girl and talk to her about heaven and her uncle Dylan. It will be a wonderful feeling holding her knowing she was just with him. I can’t wait to feel her sweet spirit. The first year after Dylan’s passing I remember counting the months and reliving the night of the accident in my dreams. I remember waking up bawling in the middle of the night. The pain in my heart being to much to handle. But over the second year I have stopped counting the months, the nightmares have gone away and I have been able to enjoy my life. The pain is still there no doubt but the constant ache is gone. I feel so blessed that Dylan and I were able to make the memories that we did over the six years he was on this earth. He brought joy and light into the lives of everyone who knew him. I think about his sweet smile and warm hugs everyday. I still wish for just one more day with him. His passing has taught me to never take things for granted. Always tell those you care about that you love them, and never stress about the little things. Over the next two years I hope that I can be the best mom to my little girl and always remember that we are not promised tomorrow.

Love

A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for.<3

[Baby] - A little bit of heaven sent down to earth.

On August 30th 2012 the beginning of a new adventure started for Ben and I. Early that morning we found out we are pregnant! We were beyond excited! I couldn't believe we were going to start our little family and couldn't wait to share the news. Ben wanted to tell his family right away that day but I made him promise not to. I wanted to wait and do it in a special sweet way. So a day or two later we had a friend take some pictures of us and developed one and put it in a frame and in a bag. One night we went over to Ben's parents house and gave them the present. They were ecstatic! We were happy to see the excitement on there faces. The next day I couldn't wait to tell my family so I made Ben drive us down to Safford and then home. My family was planning on going up to the mountain that afternoon and I told my mom they needed to wait until we got there because it was important. Of course they waited and we gave them the same kind of present we gave Ben's family. Everyone was happy and surprised and the quick trip was worth it.
The first trimester of my pregnancy was very easy. I did not throw up once. I was nauseous but very grateful I was not sick. My friend Savannah and I found out we were pregnant right about the same time and she would always tell me how sick she was. I felt very lucky to be able to work and not have to lay in bed all day. My first doctors appointment was on October 3rd and my mom surprised me by coming to down to be there with Ben and I. I was so happy to have her there with me. Dr McNeal was so sweet and did a vaginal ultrasound. We got to see the baby move and got pictures. It was such a wonderful experience and made me even more excited for this journey. The next doctors appointment Michelle and Sarah got to go and listen to the babies heartbeat with us for the first time. I fell in love with the sound as soon as i heard it.
The second trimester started and my tummy started to grow. It is so amazing to watch my body change and think about that little baby growing in my belly.  Our next ultrasound was on the 27th of November. This ultrasound announced the gender of our baby. Ben was wanting a little boy first and I secretly was wanting a little girl, but I wasn't about to tell anyone that. I was thinking we would have a boy because my pregnancy had been so easy. My mom and Michelle joined us to the ultrasound and we were all surprised to find out we were having a sweet little baby girl!!!! Ben and my mom were both shocked. I remember Ben asking her to double check! I was beyond excited! We went to dinner to celebrate and let the family know the exciting news. Our sweet baby girl was even going to arrive sooner then we thought. April 30th was what the doctor told us the due date was while we were thinking May 5th. So it was neat to be further along then we thought. Our sweet baby girl is already spoiled since her grandmas bought her shoes and outfits the day we found out what she was. I have started to feel her move and can't wait for Ben to be able to feel her. We look forward to the rest of this journey and to hold our baby girl. (:

Oceanside California Vacation!

This last week we were able to spend time with Bens family at the beach. The weather was perfect and we had a blast! We got to spend time with his cousins and grandparents. I got to learn how to boogie board and enjoyed baking in the sunshine. I love spending time with family. Sarah and I got some cute pictures on the beach and riding bikes was a lot of fun. I'm so thankful to have such awesome in laws.

My Better Half

Benjamin Scott Mulcock is my good looking husband. He is my better half, my soulmate, my prince charming. I started my new chapter in life with him on March 3rd 2012 in Mesa Arizona. So far it has been the perfect life. He is honestly the best thing that has happen to me. He brought me closer to my family, made me want to be a better person, and overall makes me the happiest girl in the world. He cooks for me, loves me, comforts me and will do anything for me. I don't know where I would be in life if it wasn't for him. He is my rock. We don't have the perfect love story but we have our own story and it is perfect for me. I love him with all my heart and am excited for our life together and whatever the future has to offer us.

The Farar Family

This is the Farar family. It consists of my beautiful parents and my adorable siblings. These people each have a special place in my heart. My parents have taught me how to love and what is most important in life. They have been there for me through the good and the bad. My sisters have always been there looking up to me and comforting me. I don't know what I would do without them. And my brothers... one is looking down on me from heaven cheering me on and the other is always putting a smile on my face. I love this family more than I can express and am greatful for them. I've had a wonderful 18 years in their home and with them. We have shared experiences that I will never forget, made memories that will be in my heart forever. I love my Farar Family <3

Just Getting Started

My mom started The Farar Family Blog and as soon as I read it I wanted to make my own. So here it goes!