My little love 💗

I love watching my little love fall asleep on the video monitor. The way she plays with her blanket, sucks her toes, rubs her eyes and falls asleep is so precious to me. She is so beautiful and peaceful I could seriously stare at her all night. My baby has grown so much in these last four months I can't believe she is going to be five months in a few days. Life with her has been sheer bliss. I thought I was in love when she was in my belly but over the last few months I feel as though we have gotten to know each other in a way I can't explain. Almost as if our spirits remember and know each other. She is my best friend and playmate during the day. We love to snuggle in bed in the mornings and read books in the afternoon. We love showers and looking in the mirror. I honestly get bored while she is taking her afternoon nap. It takes all my might not to wake her up early some days. Aubree has given me a whole new outlook on life. I love my parents and I always knew they loved me but I now I can truly understand how much and it can't be explained. Life will give us storms and we will have to sail through them but our children will be our biggest supporters and we will be theirs. Ben is such a good daddy and I look forward to watching his relationship grow and develop with Aubree. 

f o u r months with my little l o v e

Aubree Jane is now four months old! She weighs 15lbs 14oz and has now started eating rice cereal and loves it! She is getting so big and smart, it amazes me everyday the little things she does. Rolling over is one thing I have yet to see her do. I did put her on her belly only to look away for a split second and look back to see her on her back. I swear she rolled over without making a sound. We practice rolling over everyday. We are officially moved her to her big girl crib in her own room, so she no longer sleeps in our bedroom. It was such a bittersweet transition. That first night I had so much anxiety and barley slept. Thankfully she is just the next bedroom down and we have a video monitor so I can watch her all night if I wanted to. Morning is still our favorite time of the day although she is a pretty happy baby all day. Going into her bedroom and telling her good morning is my favorite. She gives the biggest smiles and giggles that melt my heart. Aubree loves the afternoon when her daddy comes home from work. As soon as she sees him she is all smiles. She also loves her Stella Marie and will watch her all day. I must say Stella is pretty fond of Aubree as well, she is very protective and gentle. We are very lucky. Grabbing at everything in sight and putting it in her mouth has become one of her favorite things to do. We love to read books and she tries to grab them to chew on the corners. We also got her ears pierced and she was such a champ. I held her while she got them pierced and then handed her off to daddy to be comforted. After a few moments the tears were gone and she was her happy self again. I love her little diamond earrings and am so proud of her. She is still a pro at nursing and I have decided to continue to breastfeed. We are four months going strong exclusively breastfeeding. I have become more comfortable breastfeeding in public. This has been a struggle for me from day one. There are so many people with negative comments about nursing in public but overtime I have become more confident and feel like I could inspire other moms to also be comfortable. I love the bond Aubree and I have formed through breastfeeding.

I breastfeed

Not because I think I am better

Not because I think less of formula feeding moms

Not because I want attention

Not because I want to show my breasts to others

I breastfeed

Because I couldn't imagine it any other way

Because my child wants to be nourished from me

Because this is what nature intended

Because this was the right choice for my family

Breastfeeding gives us a chance to claim an aspect of our power as women. I have learned so much over the last four moths and am loving it. I have learned that motherhood is unselfishness. The moment I became a mother it was all about her. My heart as grown and given love a whole new meaning.I never knew how much love I could feel for two people. Ben and Aubree are my best friends. I love the life we live and feel so blessed to be loved my them.

When Two Become One.

The last few days I have felt happier and more loved then ever before. When I first met Ben I knew right away he was a good guy. He seemed so genuine and kind, the kind of person who would do anything for someone he cares about. The more I got to know him the more that became clear. I remember our first dance, our first kiss, the first time he told me he loved me. It all feels like yesterday but at the same time so long ago. It reminds me of the lyric "We've come so far since that day, and I thought I loved you then."

I never thought I would be blessed with such a beautiful life so early on. Most of the time I don't feel my age at all. I feel so lucky to have a husband that supports me and let's me stay home with our sweet daughter to teach her and care for her. Without him and his hard work that wouldn't be possible. I owe it all to him. I love how much our love has grown since we first met and I feel as though this is just the beginning. The best days have yet to come and I couldn't be happier. 

 

Before you were my baby daddy, you were my husband.

Before you were my husband, you were & still are, my best friend.

 

The moments we create together, they're my favorites. <3